Thursday, 8 January 2009

"The pursuit of perfection then...

...is the pursuit of sweetness and light" - Matthew Arnold

Too right!

Finally losing again, and it feels *fantastic* :) It’s only a smidgen, but enough to get me back into that mindset, and, more importantly enough to remind me how good it feels to see the numbers fall instead of rise. There’s nothing like the sweet taste of success (however small!) to thinspire you is there? I know it’s going to be harder now; my parents had been abroad for the last 5 months or so, so I wasn’t accountable to anyone for what I did or didn’t eat, but now they’re back there’s no way I’m going to get away with skipping meals or only eating vegetables. But as far as I can calculate I can still restrict enough to keep losing steadily til I’m at my GW. Slow progress is still progress, right?!
Today one of my colleagues came down at lunch and asked if I fancied going to the pub with them; normally I only order a diet coke with the explanation that “I’ve been picking at things all morning” or “I’m going out for dinner tonight” but today I was *so* hungry and had the world’s biggest craving for rhubarb crumble. Standing at the bar about to place my order, I glanced over next to me and saw the thinnest girl I’ve seen in my life. Seriously, her thighs were about the size of my ankles, she was absolutely stunning. Needless to say I went with the diet coke and a guilt-free afternoon :) I’m going to have to keep a tighter handle on my cravings though, that was a little too close for comfort.

3 comments:

Leni said...

Congrats to your strength! Diet coke is also my favourite drink. Always, not just when I go out with friends.

Do you live with your parents? I hope for you it won't get too difficult to stick with your diet when they're back...

Remember the days when I still lived at home - plain horror how they tried to feed me and how hard it was to not eat with them...

LoveMeDead said...

congratulations on being so strong! you should be very proud of yourself.
amybear

nadja said...

i love diet coke too :)