Wednesday, 22 April 2009

mirrors, bread and beastiality

positive list:

no, on second thoughts, let's start with the negatives, then we can end on a high.

negative list:
1. having been C&S free for the last 2 weeks (!!!) there've been some occasions where i would ordinarily have chewed and spat and instead have chewed and swallowed. (half a loaf of bread (bread??!! what was i thinking?! carbscarbscarbs...) in two days springs to mind...)
2. i haven't been making the most of living at the top of a steep hill and have gotten the bus a couple times. lazy cow.
3. i'm still fat. this is in all likelihood directly related to items 1. and 2.

positive list:
1. i haven't C&Sd in 2 weeks!
2. the new house has a weight bench thingy where i can do some strength training
3. it's spring time and the magazines are full of swimsuit spreads = thinspo!
4. there's a huge mirror in my room - as i don't wear much to bed i've stuck thinspo around it so that when i wake up in the morning if ever i'm tempted to skip working out the sight of my gelatinous bulk next to the beautiful people is usually enough to shock me into doing some exercise.
5. being the only person in the house means i'm at liberty to leave thinspo lying around in conspicuous places without anyone interrogating me over it.

all in all, the positives outweight the negatives so far. except of course that i'm still fat... that's a pretty big negative. but i'm working on it.

is it weird that i find my friend's pet whippet thinspirational?? it could be a new genre - animal thinspo. or is that bordering on beastiality?!

3 comments:

nadja said...

it's great you haven't c&sd, sweetie. *hugs*

SK said...
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SK said...

Well done being C&S free!

I live on a steep hill too, its such a hassle to walk up it to the top where i catch the bus, it makes me all hot and yuck before i catch the bus to uni and makes me feel disgusting for the rest of the day.

Im sooo jealous that you live alone and can post your thinspo everywhere. I really wish i could do that.

Keep up the good work :D

xo

(sorry deleted this comment and reposted it cuz of some word mix ups!)