Thursday, 25 December 2008

What do I want for Christmas...?

To be thinner of course. Not much chance of that after today though. I ate like a starving person. BUT it was lovely to spend time with my family, there were no major dramas or tantrums, and a potentially awkward encounter with my ex at church was less stressful than it could have been, so I'm trying *really* hard to focus on those things rather than the food issue. It's hard when it's so much at the front of my mind though. Traditionally in my family my Dad reads something every year at Christmas, he's done it since as long as I can remember, anyway the story this year had in it the line "in living only to conquer, you yourself have been conquered." It made me think of this lifestyle, we try so hard to be in control of this thing but in the end it overwhelms us.
Heh, festive, I know. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to put a downer on Christmas! It's a beautiful time of year, and I guess if there's one day out of 365 when we should be allowed to think about something else it was today. So for now let's just embrace that, and remember that tomorrow's another day.

4 comments:

Wraith said...

It is a bit of a downer. But, it's kind of sad but true. None of us asked to be this way.

nadja said...

i'm glad to hear you had a good time with your family <3

Star* said...

happy christmas. you ate like a thin person? good. me, no :(

Rachael said...

Hey,
I saw you commented on one of my posts a while back sorry i haven't been in touch sooner.
I am just replying to your comment about eating too much when you get home in the afternoon and i always find that if i drink two bottles of water in one go it makes me feel so full up for ages i forget my cravings and also i keep a thinspo book which i look at if i am feeling the need to eat too much.
Hope i helped :).